Time passes by
yet nothing`s change
for both you and me

maybe you wouldnt believe me
if i tell you this,
you`re the very first guy
i fell head over heels for

perhaps that maybe the reason
why my heart doesnt want to let
you go

though i still love you,
theres nothing i can do
coz youve got nothing for me

im here youre here
but your heart isnt here
gosh, im st surprised
maybe its juz not meant to be

ive lost you
three months two days
will i ever get you back?
only you can answer that

will there ever be us again?
i hope so
but ive got no place in your heart anymore
i guess, its juz a wish
a dream that can only be granted by you
but looking at the way things are
you are there and i am here
but your heart is no where near me

i kissed you yest.gosh hw much i missed you. but hey life has to moved on.

if you love someone, tell her before its too late
if you trust someone, tell her before its too late
if you miss someone, tell her before its too late

have patience with her
patience and trust is the key to a relationship
when you show her that she is able to trust you,
you will be allow to enter into her world
when you have enter, take care of the world
if the world crushed, your relationship will crushed too.

aaaaaaaah!!!!!!! we are gonna noe our results on monday. very scary.. then again, dun we have to go through that every year?lol. still got butterflies in my stomuch... lol... today was okae i guess.. we were talking abt the future of 07a2.... its seems rather scary.... haha.... muz wait laa until monday... help!!!!!!!!!! people got to go, mummy nagging... byez... muackzzzzzz

its nearly been 2 wks since we broken up....i still cried when i think about it... i mean...james makes all the decision then he inform me and i have to live with it... then i told him we will talk after exams... he sae okay.then, yest, he decided that we shld be frends...only frends... he decide all by himself... he didnt even ask me...i guess im nt important...eventhough its my life that hes playing with and all the decision that he make abt us, it will affect my life... but i guess thats nt impt to him...as long as hes happy rite? now, everything i do seems wrong to him... and its the very same things that i did when he juz got to know me...the very 1st tym...why? why cant he even give me a chance to say what i feel? have i lost all my rights?... i kant even bid gd morning to him...afterall that we have been through together, is it for real? or is it juz merely an experiment for him? does it mean anything to him at all? why kant he give it another chance? all im asking for is another chance...another chance... i gave him so many chances... even after he made two biggest decision that affect my life without telling me, im still am willing to give him a chance...bcoz.. i love him

hey james
you did it again
making decisions without me having a say again
can u give it a chance?
juz a chance?
have you lost alll your feelings towards me?
no more love for me at all?
no more place for me in ur heart?

plz... think abt it k.... plz.... a chance is all im asking for...plz james...plz...

hey.... so many things going on in sch... well... its arts fest after all.. james feels and wants us and our relationship to slow down... well, he doesnt have too, it already is.. i mean.. that is what that has been happening isnt it? the only time he seems to be having fun with me is when we meet on national dae... after that, hes juz tired...now he wants to slow dwn... i kind of wonder does he want to really slow dwn or just that he wants space? i mean.. how slow more does he want? havent i like stayed away frm him enough? i didnt bother him when he was having his reharsals... in fact, i stayed as far as possible. he saes that its for studies... well, if he feels that is wat is best for him, then fine... i will let it be then... i love him... and that wun change...i guess i juz have to let time decide... i love him so much ... i dun wan it to end... no matter how hurt iam, i never ever want it to end coz i love him... and will continue to do so no matter what happen...

james.... i know that things arent going well with us right now.. but i juz want to let you that i love you, i love you so much... no matter what happen, i will always love you... i hope that you do feel the same way too...

hello........ its been a long while.... ive been so busy that i dun even have time for myself. i have calling orphanages after orphanages... for drama cip... gosh... whish that could be counted as my drama cip...the hours that i spend to call them is more than 6 hrs. im currently doing my project while chatting with james and clarence... well mostly clarence... hes a nice guy and a gd frend... knows himself well..anyway... my relationship with james is improving i feel... we have grown closer and its harder and harder to let him go each day...haha... and we even get sick at the same time... i wonder what does this mean? pure conincidence or fate? anyway... i miss him now.. we had a big miscommunication argument just now.... its was wow....gosh i cried aand cried and he didnt even noe it... eventhough i told me...anyway...i thought for the first time he didnt understand me... im scared...is it really true or am i juz thinking too much.?....

to my dearest baby,
heys.. im sorry abt juz nw
i love you so much
its getting harder and haarder for me to let you go
i love you sweetie
u noe what i wonder sometimes,
are u the sweetest invention of a lover`s dream
or are you wonderful, bcoz i love you
only you can answer that
but... no matter what the answer is,
i will alwaes love you no matter wat
i love you so much
muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

kind of emo.. got disturbed by two morons in the train. kind of scared. this are the times where i wish james was wif me. nothing much happen. juz have issues to settle wif james i guess. haiz...... malay projes=ct is due this fridae. james is nt talking to me nw. guess hes pissed of. i guess i said alittle too much juz nw. serve me rite i guess.tongue too sharp. someone plzz bite my tongue. anyway got to go. so many thing to do so little time.

its my 2 mths anniversary todae!!!!!!!!! gosh time really flies doesnt it? haha... i remember how it all happen like it was yesterday.... haha.... james was cute then and still is now..... anyway i watch transformers with razia today.... it was nt bad and i love bumble bee... exams are finally over... it means... time to start working again... oh my mum said that im putting on weight!!!!!!!!! that is super true!!!!!! gosh... i nd to stop my eating habits now ans do wat i used to do... a meal per day and get myself super busy... juz like the good old daes at northbrooks.... i know that if ms eng finds out my decision on going back to my old waes, she so going to be super furious with me.... shes like my mum in school, alwaes making sure that i eat... she used to buy food for me durin recess and make me finish it rite in front of her... but im puttin on weight..... so need to scacrifice my current eating habits... james brought me cookies..... and i have been craving for cookies... but nw, i dunno wat to do....if i gave it to my bros, it wil hurt him... ido want to eat it but.... im getting worked up about my weight gain.... what am i to do? somebody pls tell me wat to do...i dun want to hurt him.... he saes thats its okae that im putting on weight.... his arms can go around my waist....aaahhh!!!!!!!!

ive been very busy these daes... busy moping ard... studying for exams.... juz had mob test...headache!!!!!!!!!! today, i pass james our journal, we started one together and i gave him a bear coz he alwaes said that he didnt have anything to hug... but i cant see that he didnt like it... his reaction tells me so... its okay i guess... i kant force him to like it if he doesnt... anyway everyone has the right to do what they want including james... we rarely spend time wif eachother anymore.. wif exams coming and after that ive projects and drama and he has frisbee, his pw and others stuffs... doubt we`ll have time for eachother lyk we used to... its going to be 2mths next friday. time really passes by so fast... and im kind of scared that we`ll drift apart futher than we already are..

note to james if ure reading this:
hey... im sorry if you dun lyk the beAR... you can do anything to it, throw it away if you want to... i kant force you to keep it if you want to... sorry if u didnt lyk it... if u dun wan it, its okay, i understand...gd luck for your exams... if u ever need me, im just either a kal or msg away... take care...muackzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hmm..........

i had the sel camp for the past two daes.... and i guess i discover alot... in the midst of all the crowd, i felt lonely... and this wat i felt
in such a big school
filled with so many people
i actually felt lonely
the people who i tell so much to
are the same ones that make me feel alone
this feeling sucks
but one as to get used to it
coz thats the way life is....

i kant wait for next week..... im looking forward to the sc camp but im also looking forward to a particular day....thursday coz it marks the day that two people begun on a relationship.... i guess he is super super busy that he forgot... itz okae i guess... i kant blame him... he has his frisbee competition in his head... he should be focusing on that...
james, iknow that you`re kind of busy with your frisbee competition... i wish you and your frisbee team all the best... about next thursday, 6th of june, itz okae if you are busy... you need time for yourself, away from everyone including me... take care... i love you...muackzzzzz..:(

i was kind of bored todae. got mc until 22nd may. sad B( i miz school alot... but looking at a gd side, i got time to finish my projects... i m like doing my malay project nw... taking a break to do this.(updating my blog) i miz my class 07a2 2dae.. but at the same time, i glad to have a break from them... nd time to be on my own i guess...but there is one person that i miss the most today.... my baby, james... miss having our mondae morning brekfast 2dae.... i miss the person itself the most.... haiz..... got to wait..... baby, if u are reading this... juz wanna let u noe that i miz u alot since fridae nite... i love you alot... and ur msgs and ur calls whether long or short, it has and will alwaes make my day... muackzzzzzz......

this week was topsy turvy..... i had my killer cramps..... boy, it hurts like crap... i had to run 2.4km(real nafa) and... i acutually passed!!!!!!my timing was 16.31mins... not bad ... moving on... we had our gp exam yesterday and sports day... gp was okae i guess... a B would do fine for me... sports day... was hyper and fun i guess... onyx won the cheerleading again and garnet won overall...oh and by the wae, alot of people fainted yesterday. still, it enjoyable i guess. but i prefer what happen after the sports day...james and i went to second base in the train.i would give anything to do it all over again... hes quite smooth...and good...tomorrow is gonna be 2wks that we are together. gosh i love him... i love him so much.... oh and im having a fever 2dae... my head is spinning la... gonna write a short poem...This is Specially for my baby,James Ow...

You came into my life as a frend
i barely know you and you barely know me
yet with each dae passes by,
i grew to love you
6th may 2007,2030hrs we got attached.
i remember that dae like i was yesterdae.
i love you then
i love you now
and i`ll continue to love you in the future.
i love you james...i really do...
happy 2wks anniversary baby..
hope you like it...muackzzzzz

updates.......

ive been so so so busy lately.....had i dae and international friendship dae..... so many projects...... exams coming..... stress!!!!!!! im like stuck doing the photo montage for drama farewell party alone la..... im doing it now actually.... parvitra juz told me 2dae, that they wanted to see it this fridae!!!!!!! as if i havent had enough things on my hands already!!!!!!! i ran 2.4 todae
while having my killer cramps...... and i passed!!!!!!! haha. any wae, in the midst of these busy and hectic schedule.... james and i got attached to eachother on 6th may 2007 at 2030hrs..... haha...... gosh i love him alot...... OKAE PEople got to go, so many things to do, so little time.... byez... muackzzzzzzzzz

Its been a long time since i last blog. ive been busy. my very first performance in millenia insitute was yesterday, FRIDAY :27/4/2007. it was fun. i made lots of new friendz in drama and two very close friends: amirah and james. now in drama they are my best budz especially james. in 2 dayz, we msg eachother more than 100 msgs. it even beats my boyfriend`s record. but i enjoy talking to james. we have lots in common and hes just easy to talk to. and hes so much fun. he is a good, understanding, open,sweet and great guy. hes honest as well. im glad i got to meet him. and he is my boyfriend in drama.... im sure that he will make a wonderful boy friend and the gal who becomes his galfriend is a lucky one. hope his love life goes better than mine. muackzzz..........

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okay ladies n gents....... tiz is my new blog so sorry no interesting facts yet..... any wae i have to confess that i feel that tiz guy, mr h is hot..... serious.... its kind of bad coz im attached and everything..... i got a thing 4 a guy in uniform and juz nw when he wore his, i nearly melted ...... anywae i got pissed off by dia coz she didnt do what she is suppose to do. not fair to us. if she kant do it alone then open her mouth and ask.!we are nt mind readers that we can read her mind n her needs! aarh!!!!!!!!! okae people got to go. muackzzzz