hello........ its been a long while.... ive been so busy that i dun even have time for myself. i have calling orphanages after orphanages... for drama cip... gosh... whish that could be counted as my drama cip...the hours that i spend to call them is more than 6 hrs. im currently doing my project while chatting with james and clarence... well mostly clarence... hes a nice guy and a gd frend... knows himself well..anyway... my relationship with james is improving i feel... we have grown closer and its harder and harder to let him go each day...haha... and we even get sick at the same time... i wonder what does this mean? pure conincidence or fate? anyway... i miss him now.. we had a big miscommunication argument just now.... its was wow....gosh i cried aand cried and he didnt even noe it... eventhough i told me...anyway...i thought for the first time he didnt understand me... im scared...is it really true or am i juz thinking too much.?....

to my dearest baby,
heys.. im sorry abt juz nw
i love you so much
its getting harder and haarder for me to let you go
i love you sweetie
u noe what i wonder sometimes,
are u the sweetest invention of a lover`s dream
or are you wonderful, bcoz i love you
only you can answer that
but... no matter what the answer is,
i will alwaes love you no matter wat
i love you so much
muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz