hey.... so many things going on in sch... well... its arts fest after all.. james feels and wants us and our relationship to slow down... well, he doesnt have too, it already is.. i mean.. that is what that has been happening isnt it? the only time he seems to be having fun with me is when we meet on national dae... after that, hes juz tired...now he wants to slow dwn... i kind of wonder does he want to really slow dwn or just that he wants space? i mean.. how slow more does he want? havent i like stayed away frm him enough? i didnt bother him when he was having his reharsals... in fact, i stayed as far as possible. he saes that its for studies... well, if he feels that is wat is best for him, then fine... i will let it be then... i love him... and that wun change...i guess i juz have to let time decide... i love him so much ... i dun wan it to end... no matter how hurt iam, i never ever want it to end coz i love him... and will continue to do so no matter what happen...

james.... i know that things arent going well with us right now.. but i juz want to let you that i love you, i love you so much... no matter what happen, i will always love you... i hope that you do feel the same way too...

hello........ its been a long while.... ive been so busy that i dun even have time for myself. i have calling orphanages after orphanages... for drama cip... gosh... whish that could be counted as my drama cip...the hours that i spend to call them is more than 6 hrs. im currently doing my project while chatting with james and clarence... well mostly clarence... hes a nice guy and a gd frend... knows himself well..anyway... my relationship with james is improving i feel... we have grown closer and its harder and harder to let him go each day...haha... and we even get sick at the same time... i wonder what does this mean? pure conincidence or fate? anyway... i miss him now.. we had a big miscommunication argument just now.... its was wow....gosh i cried aand cried and he didnt even noe it... eventhough i told me...anyway...i thought for the first time he didnt understand me... im scared...is it really true or am i juz thinking too much.?....

to my dearest baby,
heys.. im sorry abt juz nw
i love you so much
its getting harder and haarder for me to let you go
i love you sweetie
u noe what i wonder sometimes,
are u the sweetest invention of a lover`s dream
or are you wonderful, bcoz i love you
only you can answer that
but... no matter what the answer is,
i will alwaes love you no matter wat
i love you so much
muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz