its over

finally...its over
i couldnt be happier
no matter what you say
im glad its over
i aint going to ever go there again
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
im not changing my decision
ever...
not now...not ever...

Crapy DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was just a bad day. ada org tarik diri....mengarutkan... pasal dia tertekan...pasal nxt year dia ambik pw lagi... abeh kita mcm mane? dia tak fikir ape... dia sorg aje yang tertekan. kita semua tak ape.kita semua happy happy kan. macam hidup kita tak ada masalah.hidup dia aje yang susah... haiz...org mcm ni pun ada... buat darah orang naik aje... boleh kene high blood pressure seh... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sakit hati saja....

i went jalan raya!!!!!!!hehe... very very tiring!!!!!!! but very very fun!!!!!hehe... got to meet new people...i was sick. i still am....haiz........ it was my frist time going jalan raya with my boyfriend.... never done that before...well there's a first time for everything rite?

thank you for inviting me to jalan raya. thank you for introducing me to your friends...thank you... i hope that this will continue for many years to come.... love you... muuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaacckzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

selama ini aku berjalan di muka bumi ini bersendirian
tanpa sembarang arah tuju
aku berjalan di dalam kegelapan sendirian
hinggakan kegelapan mempengaruhi diriku
hingga tibanya engkau di dalam kehidupanku
engkau menyinari kehidupanku
dengan tata susilamu
sinaranan mu membawaku balik ke pangkal jalan
kini aku tidak lagi berjalaan sendirian di muka bumi ini
engkau sentiasa disisiku
kerana engkau, aku kini mempunyai
arah tuju dalam kehidupan

nearly four months has past... people leave... people came into my life. particularly one guy... my dear sweetheart... we dated for 2 mths and now together for nearly two mths too... i love him.. alot.. even more that i love james to be honest... i can safely say that i head over heels for fadhil... i get goosebumps everytime he touch me or kiss me... i get a tinklely feeling taht i never get before with any one. he is the one... im glad that ive found him. i love you dear.. i really do... muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

time passes by... how will i face tomorrow? can i face it? i guess have to no matter what. i think im over you... but deep down in my heart, im still hoping for a dream upon a star to come true. I know taht im just a fool whos willing to sit around and wait for you. Im helpless, I still love you. But i have moved on. ... for the better. But my feelings for you, I feared never changed coz you are the first guy i fell head over heels for.

But dont you worry coz i aint going to bother you. coz you have your own life and i have mine. im happy that you are happy. i pray that may you be blessed with constant happiness all the time.

Dear Friends
your presences in my life
means alot to me
You left without a word
I felt so lost
I havent gotten over it
Im still trying to get by
Cat is leaving for England
Though we have just became friends
she was there when i was lame

These New Friends
I made this year
made a big impact in my life
yet they left
I feel alone once again

i missed talking to you
hearing your voice, reading your lame messages
mocking me....calling me an eight year old kid
yuo make me stress and annoyed at times
but i work well under it
your ways maybe diffrent and simple
but these little ways makes me feel comfortable
it tells me im not alone
You dont pretend
a quality hard to find
You dont sympatize
You empatize
Most of all, you listen
and you were there
when i need someone to talk to
Your absences makes me feel akward, weird and incomplete
my days seems dull
things arent the same anymore
i miss the times when we were close
now that we are distant
i shed tears remembering those times
i once said that you`re one of my closest good friend
maybe i was wrong
perhaps, you`re indeed my only closest male good friend
perhaps that`s why
i miss your presences so much
i wish those days would return
never realise this when you were there
but your words affect me the most
i guess you made a big impact on my life
I miss you dearest friend
I wish upon the stars Everynite
though our path maybe different now
we would be close as we were before
once again...one day
Im sorry... My Dearest friend good Friend....
I miss you.....

hahaha im legal !!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooohoooo!!!!!!!! but doesnt make much diffrent in my life. anyways, i got a story to share.... enjoy reading it!!!!!

Elizabeth...Claire....Laura... 3 Diffrent gals... 3 diffrent lives... One common story... love as a cause of suffering.......

Elizabeth thought she found the one. Fate was finally kindbto her at last. As the time passes, she was on cloud nine. But fate was just playing her....for in a blink of an eye, her world made up of beautiful dreams and hopes crushed.... She cried...and she cried.. she cried all through the time, till onr day, she couldn't cry no more... She may not cry anymore but inside she is breaking down bit by bit losing herself slowly... waiting to dissappear one day....

Claire.... the sweetheart of many. surrounded by the people who wants her and those who wants to be her. however, despite the many choices, only one is the king of her heart. but her journey with her king wasnt all that smooth. she too shed tears...much tears...heartbreaks from tym to tymbut she still stood strong.now, though her journey through the flames of love is smooth but her future with the king of her heart still remains unknown... hope and pray ...is all she can do.

Laura..laura, naive and friendly is what she is. always surrounded by her friends, but her heart is only yearning for one prince charming. Her prince charming surrounded by many beautiful swans never did notice her. Heartbreahs feels her often but yet she continued on loving and waiting for her prince charming to take her away. She knows that the dream may not come true but dear Laura never stop praying and dreaming about her prince charming for even a day...perhaps she never will...

3 gals...3 different lives... one common story....love as a cause of suffering...

may no one have to go through life the way the three gals went through... life is short but its full of pain and sorrow... no matter what, we still have to make the best of our lives....

Wish List 2008
.new non PE sch shoes
.new school bag
.new purse
.new pillow
.new phone
.Get yana, mirah and james bdae presents
.outing with Bella
(to albert, hint-hint GET MY BDAE PRESENT!!!!!!!!)

Nisa , Fizah And Razia read what i wrote in my impt dates. they all gave me a worried look. guys, dun worry abt me...

the yr 3s had their nafa yest. we saw james runing and his very dramatic ending.
Champa was asking me if my boyfriend is okay?
i told her, sweetheart hes not my boyfriend anymore and yes hes okay, hes a strong guy.
haha....... weird life.
amazing how life can play us.....
it made me fall heads over heels and it broke my heart into pieces juz like that.
anyway... i failed alicia ng test. badly!!!!!!! and i think i screwed my maths test as well.
okay sweethearts... got to go.. so little things to do, so much time...... muackzzzzzz

New year...new book...new chapter of life begins.... masks put on, hiding what you really feel once again. the feelings i felt or feel, still never changed...maybe it will never be...

raphael, is the one talking to me as much as james is these days.
well...raphael is more la. but compared with james, james still wins hands down. anyway.. got nothing much to say....

coz......
as long as hes happy, im happy :)that is what matters to me the most.. scarifices makes him happy.... muackzzzzz